Sometimes I lie so people will shut up. It’s why I make myself stand tall and proud. Because if people knew I once vomited up everything I ingested, or cried on a scale, or grabbed at my fat in a mirror until my skin was bruised, they’d try to convince me I was pretty just so I’d stop. Like they know me better than I know myself.
I’m never asking for compliments when I admit I don’t like myself. I’m just being honest. Compliments and attention don’t help, they just make me feel guilty.




